So, it's hard not to feel a little paranoid. Since May we have had so many things break down-- Elctronic, mechanical, Physiological.. We've replaced a water heater, need to replace a refrigerator, have repaired and re-repaired Rob's Eye and Nate's special places, and have made approximately $1000 of repairs to each of our cars. I'm a little afraid to get up in the morning. It kind of reminds me of the people in the Book of Mormon who's stuff keeps disappearing.
As soon as they repent, it stops happening. So I've really been examining what it is that I need to repent of to stop this madness of deterioration. Let me count the ways. Impatience, opinionatedness, failure to be charitable at every turn, idleness, lack of gratitude, etc. (Oh, did I mention my food storage is not up to snuff). These are only some of the myriad ways I do not measure up.
After some introspection I came to the realization that I can't stop the madness any more than I can get laundry done in a day at my house. Stuff just happens, whether we're faithful or not. But if I AM faithful, and read my scriptures like I ought and try in every way to be kind and good, I will have the blessing of knowing who I am, where I come from, and the sure understanding that it's a car, a fridge, hot water, for heaven's sake- not some divine punishment or a reason to question my testimony. The other things-- those requiring the healing hand of the Lord have come and I am so blessed. When I look at all that I do have, I am astonished, and humbled.
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